not feelin right~

♥ was listening to this song "wait for you"

what hells wrong with me..

feels really bad,i swore to myself that i never wanna thought of you anymore..

even just for a seconds,but im missing you again..

fuck,i hate it~

what should i do...

♥ why are you disturbing my heart once and again?:/

i hate you,but i hate myself the most..

youre not the perfect one,i think..

but why am i keep waiting for you?

i've been waiting since the day i lost you..

have you ever feel my heart?

and mm,i do love you loads..

♥ somehow,i wish to be the one who can shared everything with you..
and i was trying so hard.

and now,i think you just dont need me anymore..
even its just a normal friend?..

♥♥ i hate how much i love you..

i hate how much i miss you..

i hate how much i need you..

fuck! just please,i dont wanna stuck in you anymore..

can you please,get out off my mind? :'(

♥just now,rain soooo heavily man:0:0
veryvery scary owh,but very fun cause can play water!!:D:D
stupid polo,jason and khoo keep hiding my shoe>.<
but they all so stupid keep mopping the floor tadiXD
then they wanna make ppl fall down lagi:D

♥stupid zane keep playin with my shoe>.<
then keep throwin to lewis suddenly when i see..
DXX..my shoe was in the tong sampah:S
then i straight run to him and keep slappin+pinchin him..
ngehehe~~:P manatau suddenly..
*baaaaaang~~*
i ter-bang the wall..
omgshhh~~~! saaaakit man,but very fun!!:P
but luckily he didn't let go also lar..
or not i jatuh tuu:P
but still hate him!!
he LOVES to bully + lc + kacau me man>.<
kill him tuu!!:D:P

♥i love today!!
cause i got to played like gila!!:P:P
i hope can be like this everyday man..
if really can,wooohoooo~~:P
lalalala,im crazy toitoi~~:P:P

>wah.. they all GANGBANG her:0:D

kinda scary but funXDXD

i thought they were just kidding manatau..

sooo serious owh,when recess then straight go to her owh:0:0

actually i suppose to join also but i didn't..

>i was helpin woon make the FAKE TATTOO(lol:P)

very fun lar,keep drawin his tangan:D:D

but this stupid JASON draw mine also>.<

i tolong woon,stupid jason tolong meXDXD

but kinda nice lar he draw:P

if not nice i kill him tuu haha:P

>SAPPI leavin after this comin exam owh):):

shitty man,i don want him to leave owh..

what should i do to stop him??XD

i kidnap him?!?!:D:D

haha,but nvm lar..

SAPPI~~~~!

i will miss you muchy much wan:D

plus,kacauuuuu you!!! ngehehe:P

>what else to say larh??:D

haha,i very very yai yai!!!

nyahaha:P:P

weeeeeee~~ i lubb eu♥ !!!

all my friends,be happie pepet!!:D:D

i miss you♥

♥don't you know that,i miss you badly?..T.T

what should i do? there's hard for me to smile without you..
i can't feel any other things except for you.. you're my everything..
why do this to me? leave me without any warmy smile,without the last huggie,muah muah..
i miss you damn much this few monthsT.T
what should i do to get your everything back?

♥>sorry for what i've done,honey(ex)..

i do regret of it,honestly wan):
gimme the last chance to make up for what happened in the past,please?
i know u hurt badly last time,maybe that's why you leave me..
but i guess you didn't know that..
i rather go die than seeing you sad,hurt T.T

♥...do you still love me?

yes or no? i hope it's a YES..
if it's really a yes,please just come back to me..
i will be everythin u need,i promised..
no matter what,u're still the most i love...my one and only love(hubby)..
i wont be like last time anymore..please?

♥..giving the fake smiley~

i'm always smiling and laughin like crazy in front of you..
but.. do u ever seen the pain,the scar inside?
every little of my smile,hides a big scar inside..
do you know this?
you're the only one who can heal it T.T
but will you do this?? ..for me??

♥_want you back..

just tell me what should i do to get you back):
i don't need anyone else but just you..
to me,you're ONE IN A MILLION..
wish i could just let you turn around,turn around and see my cry..
there's so much i need to say to you,so many reasons why..
you're the only one,who really knew me at all...

im tired..T.T

few months ago,i loose the one i love the most,the most important person to meT.T do u ever know hw important are u to me?T.T why? why don just give my the very last chance to change everythin?T.T why love her so much? don u knw that she's cheatin?T.T what shud i do? i really love u lot.. and..i do regret of what i've done to u.. im sorry baby..everytime see u sad for her but i cant do anythin?T.T damn! it's just to hard for me to stop carin u..but what shud i do?T.T i did so many things for u nw but its just seems like no useT.T what shud i do to get over u? can u tell me?T.T im tired of waitin... i tried to move on,but i failed to do so.. why don u just come back to me?T.T please baby,i need uT.T i hate it when im not being with u..i miss u badlyT.T do u ever knw hw much i love u? hw much i miss u?T.T i cant even stop thinkin if uT.T i really wish that we could just spend the one last time being together..i miss ur hugs,ur kisses,ur warmest smile,ur carin,ur every everythin..i miss it so muchT.T hw can i get u back?.. please baby,just come back to me? i will be everythin that u need,i promiz...plaese?T.T but even though u don wan,i will still love u as much as i can..cause..i cant stop it,i don knw hw to stop and i nvr wanna stop lovin u..last time,u were the one who keep waitin for me,did everythin for me..and nw,its my turn(: but baby,i just don wan u to sad for her anymore..please? just get over her.. she don worth it,she's such a fuckin biatch!T.T she was cheatin u knw? haiz...hw shud i tell u? can u accept this fact? i don wan u to sad for her anymore..

fuck! i hate it..my best fren,is she? umm...why? lied to me once and once agn,but u nvr feel sry?T.T u hurt me,u hurt him too! i don care if u hurt me,but why? don't you knw that he really love u? wtf that u really wan?! after broke up,texted me and said that u nvr like him?! talk like u don care anythin,even if u're hurtin sum1?! told me that u don wan any guys but just wan me,but after awhile..u go to him agn? and after broke up,told me that u don wanna hurt me anymore?! but u told all ur,my frens that u don knw what u did wrong,and u don think that's ur fault.. then if really don think that's ur fault,what for wanna keep act like very kesian in front of me,and him?! fuck u biatch! just tell me the truth! im tired of u! im not that stupid but why am i keep pitying u?keep believing u even though u're lying?! fuck! just get out of my life! please! im begging u nw! why? he chased u i knw,but if really don like him wad for wanna accept?! and hey! u are the one who knw hw much i love him the most! its okay if u accept him cause u really like him..but nw,u nvr like him then what for wanna accept?! fuck! i told u ord,don hurt him! and u promised me u wont..but last,what u did?! hurt me,hurt him! and u still tell everyone that's not ur fault,its him keep kacau u,chasin u..and u go tell my fren that u don wan him anymore,u wanna gimme back?! wtf! u think what is he!? a toy?! u took it when u need it,even though u're hurtin me.. and u gimme back when u get bored of it,even though u're hurtin him?! fuck u mother biatch! just stop lying! i tried to move on but why are u keep kacau me nw?! no more frens so come to me?! its hard for me to trust u anymore...u lied to me once and once agn,but still don think thats ur fault..what are u?! why do u think that i shud go to u if u need me?! haiz..i don knw u lar..i cant trust u anymore..im sorry..cause...u hurt me the most,and..i cant forgive u for hurtin the one i love the mostT.T

sumtimes..i just wish that everythin could just be like last time..he is still my dearest hubby,and she..is still my best frenT.T but...i knw...its impossible..im always cryin,but no one can see..im always laughin in front of everyone,but deep inside im cryin..i cant show it out,cause i don wan anymore to worried bout me anymore.. but im really tired...i just wish that whenever i cry,sad...he will come to me,comfort me and just let me lie on his shoulder..i don need him to talk,just stay by my side when i need him...just gimme a warm hug when i feel lonelyT.T but can it be in real life?T.T i m i s s y o u , unknown...

i love you...forever...

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♥stop showin my love..

if a single life is wad u really wan,i will respect ur decision...hm..till now,i still don regret of chosin u to be my boy...i will never forget every everythin tat happened between us,and i hope u too..a guy like u is very hard to get...if i knw tat earlier,mayb...i will never loose uu?...hmm..so sad...i feel so sorry to u,sorry for everythin tat i did to hurt u..but i didn't mean to did tat wan..
♥I MISS U,I MISS UR EVERYTHIN♥..
i duno wad else can i do 4 u,hm..i think the only thing i can do is just leave ur life?..(if u really don wan a love relation anymore)..but,i cant BARELY move..i wish to see u happy but i don wana loose u..hm..wad shud i do?break up is the best and also the only way to stop me from hurtin the one i love the most i think..
after we broke,i keep thinkin..y u wana break?y?y?...y cant u just stay?..bt after few days thinkin of the same ques..i think tats all my fault,im the one who keep makin problem..u've been tryin ur very best to did everythin for me just to see me smile,but i never ever appreciate of it..till now then only i feel regret and even start hating myself for bein like tat to u..u did everythin for me but i do nothing for u..and keep making u feel sad,feel hard in ur life..
im ur gf,i shud make u happy all the time,NOT sad..i sucks at being a gf..i hate myself for hurtin u,makin u sad,makin u feel hard..wtf!y i never see ur good and always say u bad...actually u are ord the best...im the BAD one..
i miss u..i seriously feel like hugging u real tight right now..and NEVER LET U GO AGAIN..i wan change..i really wan change...i wan change for u..but...its all too late...u wont come back to me and i will never have a great boy like u..hm..nvm la,just let u stay single so u can be more happy..

ps.even though u not my boy anymore,but i will never stop loving u..i might stop showin it but i wont stop it..WISH THE BEST FOR U..*waiting for u?my dumbdumb karambunai boy:]~*